At the risk of sounding emo…

…I have to say today has been a reflecting kind of a day. I’ve been thinking a lot about the fact that I’m 19, going to college, still lives at home since she has three on-the-verge-of-being-thrown-in-state-hospital-or-prison little brothers, my best friend lives an hour away and the one that lives in my town I never get to see, and it seems to me sometimes like they are better friends the I am with either one of them just because they work at the same place. Just because I don’t want to work at a fast food resturant shouldn’t mean that our friendship needs to fall apart like this…It’s really sad and kind of emo-sounding, but it’s not like I do this all the time and sometimes I feel like I am loosing them both and if that actually happens I will literally be ALONE in the world since nobody else really likes me in any kind of way….the only way I’ve ever made any friends is from knowing them since I was a little girl…I feel very lost and alone…hmm ew ok I’m done thinking about this I hate it when I start sounding like a green day song… so thanks for listening
Sara

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